Grace in Small Things, September 22, 2011

1. Feeling moderatey better today. Yippee!

2. Good enough to make it to prenatal yoga for the first time (prenatal yoga's only once a week here, and every week before I've felt too sick to go.) It was sooooooo wonderful. The stretching felt so good. Also in my "normal" life, I go to yoga 2-3 times a week (Bikram yoga, which isn't allowed during pregnancy), but haven't been since, I don't know, June maybe. I've been thinking and this morning confirms that I need to try and get back to doing some of the things that are "me," even if I have to do them in modified ways.

3. Along those lines, I'm scheduling a haircut, massage, and pedicure for next week...haven't had any of those things since I got pregnant, and again, I think it'll help me feel more like myself and that this pregnancy isn't turning me into some entirely different creature, which is how I've been feeling.

4. I got invited to work in Boston this fall, and have been hugely on the fence about it. I love Boston, and have lots of friends there I would like to see (I've worked there on and off for 10 years), and my doctor says it's OK to travel this early in my pregnancy. But on the flip side, evey time I go to Boston I end up working 18 hour days day after day, and I miss my husband, and I don't want to be alone in an ER with doctors I don't know if something goes wrong. Plus, I can't imagine working as hard as I'd need to work feeling the way I do (I know I'm supposed to start feeling better soon, but that's not guarenteed.) Plus, bottom line, I don't want to be able to look back on anything and say, "If only I hadn't done that, maybe the babies would have been OK." So I'm not going to go. I know I'm being super conservative and cautious here, but it's what feels right to me. Glad to finally make a decision about it, even though it's a bummer I'm not going to get to see my friends and do all the cool Boston city stuff I like to do.

5. Going to clean my office and my closet over the next few days...both are disasters, and having both clean is going to make me feel better...trying to eliminate all the little drains on my mood/energy, you know?

Hope everyone's having a fabulous Thursday!

XOXO