Why Do You Want This Baby So Much?

So. I’m reading a book called “Inconceivable” by Julia Indichova (jury’s still out on whether I like it or not). But something I read yesterday keeps going through my mind--something a Chinese doctor said to a woman trying to conceive her second child. What he said encapsulates perfectly why I want a baby--why I can’t make this longing go away. (Because believe me, I’ve tried to talk myself out of wanting this. The savings in money and time and hassle and heartache would be astronomical.)

Here’s what the Chinese doctor said:

“You need to keep asking yourself why you want this baby so much. Do you want it for yourself, to own it, so you can say you have two children? Or is it a channel of your love to send out into the universe?”

New age-y, I know. But I need places for my love to go. January has got to be our month. Please God let it work.