Grace in Small Things: August 28, 2011

Hi Everyone!

I know I don't usually blog on the weekends, but I've been thinking a lot about some things, and wanted to get started on something new (which I'll be describing below).

Here's the deal: I've been trying to be somewhat cheerful around here--or at least balance out all the negative stuff that's running through my brain--but the truth is, between:

1) Morning sickness pretty much 24/7, and

2) Being terrified of miscarriage (this fear is growing so strong as I approach the time when things went wrong with my last pregnancy), and

3) (To a far lesser extent) not feeling like myself at all...feeling kind of bummed about the fact I can't be outdoor adrenaline girl for a while, and I just feel fat and out of shape (but don't yet look pregnant)...and I can't travel...all totally fine for the sake of healthy babies, but it doesn't change the fact that this process is stripping away so many parts of me and I'm finding that a little hard to deal with...

Anyway, each day I've been slipping a little bit deeper into a funk. And I need to do something about it. 

Bottom line, I don't want to go all Pollyanna and sugarcoat everything and run around here saying: "Life is great! Everything is happy and perfect and blissful!" I still want to do posts on whatever I'm struggling with/rejoycing over. But I do want to try and focus more on all the good in my life...I NEED to focus more on all the good in my life, because I shouldn't be feeling so terrible. I mean, I'm pregnant! And right now, there's no reason to think anything's wrong! And I won't feel so sick and be so restricted forever! (And besides, it's for SUCH a good cause.)

I've been thinking about something Sprogblogger used to do on her blog. The idea originally came from Schmutzi, and it's called "Grace in Small Things." Essentially, you list five things--small things--each day that you're grateful for.

So without further ado:

1. My husband, and how handy he is. We had a water pipe burst in our rose garden last week, and he fixed it yesterday, no problem (with me sitting beside him handing him tools) 

2. My parents bringing me food so I don't have to cook. Fresh sweet corn from my dad this week. Ratatouille and split pea soup from my mom 

3. A hike this morning (and I use that term loosely)...on a flat trail called "Kid's Meal," but still nice to get outdoors, breath in some fresh air, let the dogs run around and play

4. A newly purchased Bella Band and maternity tank top. This past week all of a sudden not a lot of my clothes are comfortable anymore....my waistbands dig in, my tank tops ride up. I can't believe how comfortable I am all of a sudden. This alone is going to make me happier...

5. My husband started his final year of college last week (he was in the Navy for eight years, returned to school on the GI Bill) and study sessions started today at our house. Since I need to get out of the way while these are going on, I've decided to use that time to work on the book that I'm trying to get a solid draft of done before the babies come. Today was my first day to sit down and work on it...felt so good

Hope everyone's been having a great weekend! Thanks, as always, for stopping by. :)

XOXO