Pregnancy: Week 7

Happy Monday, Everyone!

I'm 8 weeks pregnant today! :)

Here's how the past week has gone:

• Nausea. Pretty much 24/7. Although every once in a while there's been a brief respite (and then, of course, I worry that something's wrong with the babies)
• Food aversions...I don't know, right now I feel like I don't want to eat anything. But once I start eating, whatever I'm eating seems to be OK. And I feel better after I eat, so there's that incentive
• My boobs are way bigger and more sensitive
• I got a horrible headache one night, and I almost never get headaches. It was bad enough that I even took some Tylenol, which I've been really scared to do, even though the doctor says it's fine 
• The spotting that went on nonstop for about 2 weeks is finally gone
• Bella bands (which go over your pants and hold them up so you can unbutton them) are so my friend. Just got one yesterday and I am soooooo much more comfortable
• Edging closer to the time when I lost my last baby, and the fear is getting pretty bad. The way I'm dealing with it--not necessarily healthy, I know--is by spending an inordinate amount of time trying to make plans for what I'll do if I lose both babies. It's horrible to be thinking this way, but I guess I'm just trying to protect myself...to plan out a nice life for myself if all goes terribly wrong and we aren't ever able to have children...I don't know, all this just feels so fragile and unreal right now...I'm scared to believe this is actually going to work. Working really hard to stay focused on the positive right now and not let these fears consume me...
• Ultrasound tomorrow...been feeling pretty OK about it until today but now I'm sooooo nervous

Hope everyone has a lovely week.

XOXO