FET Update
Baby birds over at my mom and dad's. They're so cute...they sit there with their mouths open waiting for their mom to come back with something to eat.
Here's the latest as far as what's going on with my FET:
- About 2 1/2 weeks to go until transfer! Yay!
- Lupron has not been fun. Insomnia. General moodiness (work stuff irritates me vs me being able to let it roll off my back. My husband says I'm hyper-sensitive around him...poor guy). Serious anxiety about things both relevant and ridiculous. Ugh
- Started the estrogen patches today...yay for another step in the process!
- We're flying to California next week with Lupron, which has to be refrigerated...that's going to be a minor challenge. Also, I need to get blood drawn while I'm in Santa Barbara...need to figure out the logistics for that...I'm sure it's no big deal...
- I'm worried about some things my clinic has told me not to worry about, like will the embryos thaw? (This is my first FET.) I have a friend who did an FET and many of her frozen embryos did not make it through the thaw. But I'm a different person at a different clinic, and my clinic says not to worry, so I'm trying to put the thought out of my mind. Also worried that my lining won't be OK, although my lining has never been an issue
- My general state of mind is good overall. Actually, I oscillate between two states: 1) That I am going to get pregnant this cycle, no problem (and I keep thinking about twins...) and 2) That this is never going to work for me, all the years and money and strain on our marriage and strain on my body and tons of extra hours worked to pay for all this are going to be for nothing, it's just torture we have to go through for no reason, and can we please just hurry up and get this (meaning this FET and the ones to potentially follow...we're not doing any other medical interventions once our frozen embryos are gone) over with so I can have my body and my life back? Trying hard to stay in State #1, but late at night State #2 sometimes creeps in...
- I'm glad we went on the trip we just went on (and also we are going away for a long weekend next weekend)...I feel really relaxed and because I got pregnant last IVF, I'm trying to replicate the steps involved there, which included a vacation, eating in a really balanced manner (more [healthy] carbs than I generally want to eat), a massage a couple of days before transfer, etc. Even though I miscarried last round, I just kind of have this superstitious feeling that if I do everything the same, I'll get pregnant again
- Trying hard to stay calm, calm, calm...so far, so good...