Cytotec Update...And a Sweet Comment from my Husband
Bottom line: Cytotec's not that bad. I took it around 5 PM yesterday and I had a lot of cramping yesterday evening...on a scale of 1 to 10 probably about a 5 or 6 for the pain factor. Nothing a big glass of wine and a heating pad couldn't help. Today, especially this morning, a little achy and crampy and overall just drained, but nothing too bad. No bleeding...my period's supposed to start tomorrow so we'll see how that goes...
Snuggling with my husband this morning, he said, "You've given up so much to have this baby for us." It was such a sweet thing to say. I HAVE given up a lot and been through so very much (as has he)...it's nice for that to be acknowledged. There's so much I want to do that because of all this I don't have the time/energy/money to do...
In the end it will all be worth it. I just have to keep believing that.
XO
Cytotec: What to Expect
So today's the day we start the process of trying to get what's left over from my miscarriage out of my body. Been dreading this, but also anxious to get the show on the road as far as getting my body ready for next steps, you know?
It's almost 5 PM and I've just stuck 800 mg Cytotec inside me. Don't really know what to expect...my clinic didn't tell me anything, and I checked Dr. Google and all I can find is information about using this drug to clear an entire miscarriage out, which sounds pretty bloody and painful from how other people describe it, but I've already had a D&C, so I don't think this'll be too bad. I hope it won't be too bad. But I've arranged things so that I can be mellow (or even stay in bed) in the coming days if need be.
I have an appointment in Denver Tuesday to see if this (the drug) worked. If not, it's another D&C (and my summer vacation to the West coast will probably have to be cancelled. Which will suck. But babies come first.)
I've been feeling down at times since getting back from my trip a couple days ago...I don't know if it's just garden-variety PMS, or feeling sad about the miscarriage. (I've actually been willing myself not to calculate how many weeks pregnant I'd be right now, but I know it's about the time we would have found out the sex of the baby, and God I wish I was all round and cute and pregnant right now, vs fighting to lose the IVF/baby weight I gained so I can start at a better baseline when I start taking drugs again, which is going to be sometime in the next few days. God this weight's been hard to lose.) Or maybe I'm just melancholy because I didn't get enough time away from work, I don't know.
Fingers crossed this drug does its job. I'll report back with what it's like tomorrow. Already starting to feel a little weird and crampy. Anyone else been through this and have any advice on what to expect?
XO