Newly Pregnant: What I'm Thinking
I'm not buying anything until the end of the first trimester, but a girl can dream, right? How cute would this Anthropologie poof be in a little girl's room?
Hi and Happy Monday!
Thanks everyone who has been stopping by and congratulating me...means a lot! My husband and I are sooooo excited! My mind has also been racing:
- First off, there is just this incredible feeling of relief and peace. I can't believe how lucky I am to be pregnant again
- I've been spending A LOT of time the past few months trying to imagine/plan our life how it will be without any children, scared not only that this cycle is not going to work, but that nothing is going to work for us (I'm always trying to prepare for the worst...a part of my personality I'm not particularly fond of). So it's a little weird to switch from that to the thought that we could very well end up with a heathy baby (or two) this spring
- I'm a little intimidated by the high number that is my first beta. There's a very real possibility of twins, which we can totally handle and will be thrilled with (and--bonus--we will probably be done with this infertility stuff forever), but one baby just seems so easy in comparison...two is a little overwhelming. Excited for the first ultrasound to see what happens
- I am so grateful to get this little bit of happiness...even if something goes wrong like my last pregnancy, to have some time to hope and be excited and happy about the idea of a baby is such a gift
- After losing our last baby at the very end of the first trimester, my husband and I said next time (if there was a next time) we would pretend nothing was happening until the first trimester was over (eg not talk about the baby etc), but that's already totally out the window. Even more than my own happiness and excitement, it makes me so incredibly happy to see the lightness and excitement in my husband, which has included talking about the baby/ies and touching/kissing my stomach a lot...we're both so excited...we can't just pretend nothing's happening like we had planned...and that's probably a good thing...
- If my last pregnancy is any indication, I have one or two weeks of feeling pretty normal before I get sick as a dog (I spent most of my last pregnancy in bed, which wasn't a huge deal since I work from home...still, not fun). But every pregnancy is different...hopefully this time I won't feel quite so bad...
- Thinking a lot about all the ladies out in the blogosphere still trying to have a baby...especially those who have recently received bad news. Sending so much love out to you all...all this infertility stuff can be so difficult and unfair...
Next beta tomorrow and then an ultrasound August 17 or 18...will keep you all posted!
XO
Image credit: Anthropologie.