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Ugh. More Testing. Will it Ever End?

First, the good news: I'm on the calendar for a frozen embryo transfer (FET) for July 22! Yay! That means my FET cycle will be starting June 8th, which is so soon. I'm excited! :)

And then, the bad news: A bunch of my tests that the fertility clinic wants have expired, and need to be redone. UGH! Can I just complain about this for a minute? How many doctor's visits and blood draws and medical interventions is one girl supposed to endure? I hate this. I hate the time I have to take to schedule everything, and to go to everything, and to get local stuff sent over to Denver (things always have to be faxed two or three times for some reason...it's never straightforward). I hate having to make an extra trip to Denver. I hate the expense of it all. I hate the mental energy it takes up. I hate getting my blood drawn because I have terrible veins and they always have to try several times and sometimes they can't get a vein at all and I have to go home and come back the next day. I know it's silly to be upset about this, but I just wanted to have a little stretch of time without all this. I'm a terrible patient. I'm so tired of all this. I'm trying to stay in a place where I've very grateful all this is possible, but right now I'm just sick, sick, sick of it. I'm just getting so worn down...and time to recover from it all, which is what I've been trying to do, is seriously interrupted if I'm at the doctor all the time again.

Here's what they want:

 

  • HSC or sonohystogram (I'm praying this isn't what they did to me last year that hurt INCREDIBLY badly, but I think that it is)
  • Ultrasound
  • CBC
  • Thyroid hormones
  • Pap smear
  • Physical exam
  • Breast exam
  • Mammogram
  • Communicable disease testing

 

There's been so much of this...I can't imagine my life not revolving around doctor's offices and blood draws and tests. I'm trying to be brave. My BFF always says to me: "You're so brave, all you're going through with this," and it makes me feel really good when she says that. But I'm not feeling very brave today.

XO

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