Cytotec: What to Expect
So today's the day we start the process of trying to get what's left over from my miscarriage out of my body. Been dreading this, but also anxious to get the show on the road as far as getting my body ready for next steps, you know?
It's almost 5 PM and I've just stuck 800 mg Cytotec inside me. Don't really know what to expect...my clinic didn't tell me anything, and I checked Dr. Google and all I can find is information about using this drug to clear an entire miscarriage out, which sounds pretty bloody and painful from how other people describe it, but I've already had a D&C, so I don't think this'll be too bad. I hope it won't be too bad. But I've arranged things so that I can be mellow (or even stay in bed) in the coming days if need be.
I have an appointment in Denver Tuesday to see if this (the drug) worked. If not, it's another D&C (and my summer vacation to the West coast will probably have to be cancelled. Which will suck. But babies come first.)
I've been feeling down at times since getting back from my trip a couple days ago...I don't know if it's just garden-variety PMS, or feeling sad about the miscarriage. (I've actually been willing myself not to calculate how many weeks pregnant I'd be right now, but I know it's about the time we would have found out the sex of the baby, and God I wish I was all round and cute and pregnant right now, vs fighting to lose the IVF/baby weight I gained so I can start at a better baseline when I start taking drugs again, which is going to be sometime in the next few days. God this weight's been hard to lose.) Or maybe I'm just melancholy because I didn't get enough time away from work, I don't know.
Fingers crossed this drug does its job. I'll report back with what it's like tomorrow. Already starting to feel a little weird and crampy. Anyone else been through this and have any advice on what to expect?
XO
Hysteroscopy Today...And Not the News I Wanted to Hear
Happy Friday, Everyone!
So my husband and I drove over to Denver and back today for a few procedures at the clinic...unbelievable the snow in the Colorado high country...a serious blizzard going on up there on the way home...crazy for late May.
Anyway, they did another ultrasound, which was fine, and then they did the hysteroscopy. I've been talking this week about how scared I was to have this done, because the last one I had was excruciatingly painful. I had a valium this time, and it pretty much didn't hurt at all...some mild cramping, but no big deal. Does a valium really make that much difference? Or was something not quite right about how the first one was done? (Same doctor both times.) There was a LOT of blood the first time, and nothing today, so I have to think the procedure itself had something to do with it. Anyway, I'm happy to report that a hysteroscopy doesn't have to be awful. Which is good, because I'm going to need another. Sigh.
What I wanted to hear the doctor say today was: "Yay! Everything looks perfect in there! Your FET is a go!"
Instead what he said was: "There's still something in your uterus." (He didn't quite say what...part of the baby still? I don't know.)
Anyway, the plan is to give me some sort of drug before my next period to help me expel whatever it is (major cramping will supposedly ensue), then to come back for another hysteroscopy, and if it's still not out they'll have to do another D&C. But they also want to keep moving forward with the July FET, and assume everything is going to be OK unless proven otherwise. That part is great news.
Not really upset about this new development...just kind of resigned overall at this point.
We're staying home from our Vegas trip we were going to go on this coming week, to get everything sorted out, which is a bummer, but we'll go later in the summer.
Oh, and can I please have doctors quit telling me that I can't take baths or swim in a pool or have sex for X number of days or weeks? Every time I go to the doctor it feels like they do some procedure to me and then give me those instructions. So tired of the endless restrictions...
Hope everyone has a fabulous weekend!
XO