Pregnancy Weeks 18/19
Hi Everyone!
I'm 20 weeks pregnant as of yesterday...halfway...yippee!
How I'm feeling: Much better, but still nauseous often and very tired by the end of the day most days. Sleeping OK some nights and not others. I had what I assume was the flu a week or so ago...I though it was just the pregnancy, but then why was I throwing up all the time again and headache and just generally awful and then everyone in my house except my husband had it too and my parents who I am visiting both came down with it. So that was no fun.
Also some days really feeling my belly stretch, which doesn't hurt exactly, but doesn't feel great either.
Also am getting totally overwhelmed/emotional about once a week...like lying on the floor sobbing for no good reason (other than the kids are teething and a handful right now but that's true every day and usually I'm fine) emotional which is what happened today...two little kids and pregnancy is just so HARD. I was reading the other day about how women are expected to be superwomen these days, and part of that is acting like everything we're doing is a piece of cake, and I really try to do that as much as I can (two 17-month-olds and a really tough pregnancy as far as not feeling well through it and a stressful job and everything else...yeah, no big deal, is how I usually try to be.) But really, the truth is it IS a big deal, it's hard, and I love my life and all I've been blessed with but right now with so many constant demands...it's hard.
What I'm looking forward to: Our scan next week (postponed because I'm out of town)...really excited to find out if we're having a boy or a girl. This whole pregnancy is still feeling so abstract...hoping that knowing will make it more real...
What I'm worried about: Nothing really, other than the general, ever-present how-are-we-going-to-do-this-with-all-these-little-kids? worry.
What I'm reading/watching/listening to: Breaking Bad, again, man, that show is SO GOOD. Still working my way through Love in the Time of Cholera. Also started reading Making Babies: Stumbling Into Motherhood by Anne Enright...so good but really dense with meaning and insights...I feel like I need to read it just a little bit at a time. And I finally got to sit and read Vogue and Glamour...not by the pool like I've been dreaming about all summer (why can I not make that happen?) but so fun to curl up with those magazines, which are my guilty pleasure. I got an iPAD for my birthday (thanks Mom and Dad!) and it's so fun to read magazines and books on that thing. Oh, and is it wrong that I'm a grown-up and I love Katy Perry? I love her new song "Roar," can't get it out of my head...
What I'm doing for me: My mom watched the kids the other day and I got a pedicure and a massage and a chiropractic adjustment...I felt like a new woman...amazing what a few hours like that does for me. I've also been letting a lot of stuff go (like posting here) during a really busy stretch of work and while I'm on vacation...feels good to expect a little less of myself...
So overall all is well...
Hope everyone has a fabulous weekend!
XOXO
