Grace in Small Things, September 25, 2013
Hi Everyone...
Feeling pretty down this afternoon...having trouble working (I've been trying to write a newsletter article for 2 hours and I have 2 sentences...) ...can't make myself go for a hike (why?...it's gorgeous out...I have the time...the dogs will love it...I'll feel better...) ...figured it would be a good time to list some things that are good in my life, right?
And so:
- My husband and I and the twins are going out for Chinese food tonight, which sounds lovely. Haven't had Chinese food in months and months (since we moved)...hope we end up at a good place (and that the kids like Chinese...)
- Big changes are afoot at work...my biggest client, whom I've worked with for 7 years, isn't going to be using freelancers anymore after the first of the year. But I do work for other people and this sort of thing has happened before and another client always comes in to fill the void and I only need to work 20 hours a week...so I'm a little scared, but mostly I'm just trusting that things will be OK. Glad to not be panicked over this...
- I'm still really up and down, but on the whole probably more up than down. My mornings/evenings with the kids/my husband are generally glorious...just sometimes I have a hard time working instead of thinking about what happened, and late at night when I should be sleeping things aren't always the best. But every minute of every day isn't horrible, and I'm grateful for that...
- I've got about 15 lbs. left to lose from my pregnancy/fertility drugs and it's not happening very fast...but, my husband wants us to commit to doing this exercise thing together (5 AM classes 4 days a week...ugh...that's going to be hard...) so that should help right? And it will be great to do it together...
- I've been kind of obsessed with figuring out what the next step is as far as having another baby (or figuring out if there is a next step...)...my husband is urging me to take a 6-month break and I am slowly getting more comfortable with that idea...grateful to have some sort of a plan, even if the plan is to do nothing for a little while...
Hope everyone is having a fabulous Wednesday...
XOXO
