Why Blog?

My desk in my home office, where much of this blog will be written.

So last week an idea that’s come and gone for years popped back into my head: “I should write a blog! It’d be fun!”

Quickly followed by: “That would have been cool ten years ago, but everybody’s doing it now.” And: “Why would anyone want to read anything you write, you’re just an average girl.” And: “There’s already not enough time in the day, why would you want to add something else to your schedule?” And: “That’s a stupid idea. Get over it.”

Herein (I think) lies the source of much of my misery: I don’t let myself do what I want to do. I talk myself out of things that sound fun--why, I have no idea. But I’m trying to get ready for another IVF cycle (major fertility treatment), and one of the things I’m trying to do is get myself into as happy a place as possible. Just in case those who say the reason I’m not getting/staying pregnant is because I’m not totally happy, and what baby wants to be with a mom who’s not 100% cheerful all the time? (I’ll have a lot to say on that point of view at some point, by the way.)

Anyway, my “get happy” mandate has somehow helped me brush aside all those negative voices, and hey! Here I am! Blogging! Just because it’s fun! And if I find I don’t like it, I can stop, right? But at least I’ve tried something I’ve thought about doing for a long time, instead of just leaving it on my long list of things I’d love to do.

Yay, me! :)