Pregnancy: Week 6

Happy Monday, Everyone!

I'm 7 weeks pregnant today! Yay! Here's what's been happening over the past week:

• Morning sickness is not my friend. It's way worse than last week. About the same as last time I was pregnant, which wasn't pretty. Not puking, but on the verge and dealing with serious nausea 24/7. Sucks. The only day I didn't feel terrible was Saturday, and then I was worried something was wrong with the babies because I was feeling better, lol. Just no way to win here
• We found out last week we are having twins, and I'm still reeling a bit from the news. Worried about how we'll handle it physically, emotionally, financially. I'm also worried about the babies, but everything I've been reading indicates that a twin pregnancy can be a very healthy pregnancy, so trying to stay focused on that fact. On the positive side, I'm feeling like twins are going to be so fun. And also, it's such a huge, huge bonus that we won't have to go through IVF again for a second child. I've done five rounds of IVF and I am really about at my limit. If we were to lose these babies, I'm not sure I could try again. But no need to think about that right now...
• My body is already changing a lot. My boobs are HUGE. My stomach is so round, too...it's already feeling enormous to me vs how my body usually is. So weird
• Napping most days
• I've been spotting all week, very light but it's annoying (and a little scary having it go on for so long). My clinic says it's fine. They also say I can't have sex until it stops. Sigh
• Eating is not fun. Really nothing sounds the least bit appealing. But I feel a little better when I eat. And I can pretty much eat anything if I make myself...doesn't really seem to matter what it is...one food doesn't have an advantage over another. But there is zero pleasure in food right now
• My emotions and thoughts are all over the place, especially late at night when I'm having trouble sleeping. I am so very happy and relieved to be pregnant. But I'm also worried about how my life is going to change. I think you gain so incredibly much with a child, but you have to give up things, too, at least for the short term. I'm scared about how my body is going to change...will I ever be fit again? I'm bummed I have to miss another snowboarding season (I missed last year's being pregnant, and then miscarried at the very end of it), although I guess two babies for two snowboarding seasons is a fair trade. I'm going to need to work part-time after the babies are born, but is that going to be OK for the babies? (This is the first time I've worried that not being a full-time mom might not be a good idea.) Are we going to be OK with all the extra expenses the babies are going to bring? Etc.
• Still worried about miscarriage, although it's more a nagging fear in the background vs something I am totally obsessed with. I hate being in a place where I'm wishing time away, but between being sick and the very real possibility of miscarrying one or both of these babies, I just want the first trimester to be over. I've already gone through a tough first trimester...ready for something new and hopefully a bit more comfortable and a bit less scary... 

Hope everyone has a fabulous week!

XOXO