A Prayer and a Mantra

How cute is this picture my 8-year-old next door neighbor made me? She's adorable, and sooooo girly. It's so fun spending time with her...

Hi Everyone! 

Wanted to share with you today two things that keep going through my head, especially during sleepless nights (I have a pretty big problem with insomnia...often assuaged by a hot bath and/or Tylenol PM, neither of which I'm allowed at the moment...sigh...)

I'm not really very religious, but the first is a prayer I keep repeating over and over and over:

"God, please take care of me."

I talked with my dad about this the other day...he knows about this kind of thing...and he said that's a good prayer, vs asking for specific outcomes. It's helped me to feel better and continues to do so, with the stress that's still acommpanying this/these baby/ies...I'm actually pretty relaxed and positive at the moment, but I know all too well how things can go wrong...

The other thing I keep repeating to myself, kind of like a mantra, is something I read on the Happiness Project blog recently, and that is:

"Choose the Bigger Life,"

which to me means when deciding what to do/focus energy on, try to choose the things that will expand your existence.

Trying to have children (vs giving up on the hugely painful process that has been trying to get to a place with an actual live baby), for example, is choosing the bigger life.

So is making time to write (vs setting it aside which is so tempting when my days are busy, which is pretty much always).

So is dreaming big about what my husband and I really want to do next spring when he graduates from college (vs settling for what's safe and easy).

Anyway, those are some of the positive thoughts going through my brain these days (and let's focus on that for now, rather than the negative/scared things I'm thinking, shall we)?

Hope everyone has a fabulous Wednesday!

XO