Pregnancy: Week 34
Not leaving the house today so not getting out of my PJs. Ah, the glamorous life of the very pregnant... :)
Hi Everyone! Happy Monday!
So, 35 weeks pregnant today, and big changes are happening with my body. The past two or three weeks of relative comfort and ease are gone. I'm now dealing with:
- Pretty brutal insomnia, like up all night, falling asleep in the early morning for a few hours. Something I'm going to need to get used to to some extent with the babies, I know...
- My back (upper middle) is absolutely killing me. I'm trying everything: hot water bottle, massage from my husband, stretching, Tylenol, icy hot pads, baths (I had 4 on Saturday), but nothing seems to help much
- General achiness in my belly...I can't really tell a start or stop so I don't know if they're contractions, but my belly's pretty uncomfortable a lot of the time
- My belly has grown so much in the past week. I feel like absolutely nothing fits except my husband's PJs and when I'm around the house I can push a tank top up so my belly is bare (my maternity tank tops no longer cover both my boobs and my belly). But I feel like I have nothing to leave the house in, which sucks
- Plus my ankles and feet are huge all the time now, so all I can really do is slippers (although my Uggs work OK too, except it's nearly impossible to get them on because of the size of my belly)
- Oh, and I gained 5 lbs last week (and close to that the week before)...I shouldn't be gaining like that, especially since I'm not eating very much because of the diabetes diet...what is going on???
Sigh.
I've been laying in bed at night saying, please, God, let me enjoy these last few days or weeks of being pregnant, I may never be pregnant again, I love the feeling of our babies moving inside me (there is still a lot of movement, even though it's supposed to be super cramped in there and the movement is supposed to be slowing down...I haven't experienced that). I know what's to come is going to be hard, but this (pregnancy) is so, so hard all of a sudden, too.
Plus, the nausea is back. I've generally been falling asleep only after a snack (breakfast, really) to quite my tummy.
And, I've been reading a lot of baby books recently, but I think I should stop, because although I know they are just trying to prepare you for the problems that could occur, I'm scared from all the reading I'm doing that all of the following are going to happen simultaneously: 1) I will not sleep at all for days/weeks/months, 2) Nursing with hurt terribly and in the end won't work, 3) Our babies will both have colic and both scream for hours and hours on end and there will be nothing I can do, and 4) I'll end up with postpartum depression and barely be able to function.
My husband tells me I always take everything to the worst possible extreme, and it's true. I am trying, though, to picture nursing going great, no colic or postpartum depression, happy, shiny healthy babies and lots of help so I can get at least a little sleep here and there. It could all go wonderfully, and even if it doesn't I've prepared myself as much as possible, and I know I will be in love with these little creatures, so it's all going to be OK.
Anyway, sorry if this all sounds negative...I don't mean it to, still super happy and excited about the babies, I'm just dealing with an awful lot of physical discomfort at the moment, and scared of the unknowns that are about to become my reality...
Hope everyone has a lovely week!
XOXO
